this is me....if you don't like it, either keep it to yourself or don't hang out with me...
If you are someone that has been reading my blog since the beginning, you will recall one of my earlier blogs titled, The hardest time in my life. This blog was important to me. It was me putting it out there about how the hardest time in my life made me a stronger willed person. It brought me to the point where I am today. I am thankful and VERY happy taking care of MYSELF. I have taken the time to get to know what I REALLY want out of life, and myself. I am happy with how my life is, and the direction it is going. I am living an adult life, with the only person bossing me is ME! One part of the blog that still speaks true for me today is :
"But, when the final countdown started, the realization hit me. I was not the same person I was six years ago. Honestly, I wasn't the same person I was the year before. I was in my early twenties. I was figuring out what I wanted out of life. This man that had become my best friend, just wasn't who the Lord had planned for me to be with. The Lord knew I was going to change at this point in my life. He knew I wanted so many different things. And he made me strong enough to do what I had to do. I had to end this part of my life. "
The Lord did know what he was doing. I am so thankful for the examples of strong people the Lord has set in my life. I have taken years now to make myself into the woman that I want to be. I have figured many things out, and one of them is - I am going to make myself happy. I am going to do what I want to do. Now when I say this, I don't mean that I am going to rob a bank, or tell you what I think of you. No. Not the point I am making here. The point I am making, is that I am the only person who can tell me what to do. I won't be pushed or guilted into things like I was at one point in my life. I am done doing things to make other people more comfortable and not get the same in return. There have been many instances in my life with different types of relationships where I decided to compromise to make another person happy and never got the same in return. It's funny, there are so many people out there who think their opinion is the right one - and that it always needs to be shared. Someone once told me that thinking it is just as bad as saying it. I do NOT agree with them. Sometimes you need to keep it to yourself. That is why I say, this is me. If you don't like it, that's fine. I am totally aware that I will not be everyone's cup of tea. Buuuuuut, keep it to yourself. Or better yet, just don't hang out with me if it bothers you that much. Life is too short to sit around and be uncomfortable or upset. I choose to not sit with people I feel are either judging me, or trying to scold me like a child. I'm going to make myself happy. I'm going to do what makes me happy. I totally suggest you do the same.
"But, when the final countdown started, the realization hit me. I was not the same person I was six years ago. Honestly, I wasn't the same person I was the year before. I was in my early twenties. I was figuring out what I wanted out of life. This man that had become my best friend, just wasn't who the Lord had planned for me to be with. The Lord knew I was going to change at this point in my life. He knew I wanted so many different things. And he made me strong enough to do what I had to do. I had to end this part of my life. "
The Lord did know what he was doing. I am so thankful for the examples of strong people the Lord has set in my life. I have taken years now to make myself into the woman that I want to be. I have figured many things out, and one of them is - I am going to make myself happy. I am going to do what I want to do. Now when I say this, I don't mean that I am going to rob a bank, or tell you what I think of you. No. Not the point I am making here. The point I am making, is that I am the only person who can tell me what to do. I won't be pushed or guilted into things like I was at one point in my life. I am done doing things to make other people more comfortable and not get the same in return. There have been many instances in my life with different types of relationships where I decided to compromise to make another person happy and never got the same in return. It's funny, there are so many people out there who think their opinion is the right one - and that it always needs to be shared. Someone once told me that thinking it is just as bad as saying it. I do NOT agree with them. Sometimes you need to keep it to yourself. That is why I say, this is me. If you don't like it, that's fine. I am totally aware that I will not be everyone's cup of tea. Buuuuuut, keep it to yourself. Or better yet, just don't hang out with me if it bothers you that much. Life is too short to sit around and be uncomfortable or upset. I choose to not sit with people I feel are either judging me, or trying to scold me like a child. I'm going to make myself happy. I'm going to do what makes me happy. I totally suggest you do the same.
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